Thinking It Through

Two weeks ago, I posted a video on Instagram of me ranting about being stood up by a trainer I was trying to work with. I got a little bit vulnerable and a lot a bit animated in my commitment to keep working to make myself better physically the way I had over the past year mentally by going to therapy. That video was seen by some as a cry for help and by others as a way to help. And thankfully, within a few hours, I had a training session booked for the next morning with a new trainer that came very highly recommended and that I never would have found on my own.

I needed help and very thankfully, my community jumped at the chance and showed up big time.

But when I really thought about it, and even riffed on that moment with my executive coach later in the week, I realized that I have never really let me guard down like that to let people know how they can be helpful. That I continue to, despite all of what I thought were my attempts to be open and vulnerable, put up a pretty buttoned-up, life is good, don’t worry about me, persona on social and to anyone who doesn’t make it to the inner circle.

It’s what I have always done, but I am wondering now if that continues to serve me?

Things are weird and wild everywhere we look and keeping it all together is not something that any of us should have to do. We all should feel free to be a little crazier and authentically weirded out by everything that is happening in the world. I have so many questions and concerns right now about the world at large, but also around what is my world going forward and how do I want to show up for the challenges ahead.

This isn’t the post where I lay it all out, but it is the post where I say there are things to layout and things that I hope to have the chance to riff with you, the anonymous reader of this blog, and maybe have some of the things that I am finding tough in my life reflect some of the things you’re finding tough in your life and we sort them out together.

Being open and vulnerable in the world we live in today is scary, but standing for what is right when so many things are wrong is always the right thing to do. Maybe now more than ever.